Recently I've been having quite a few good days. The "blah" portion of the depression hasn't been bad at all. The fatigue portion though continues to kick my butt.
Yesterday was a prime example. I got to sleep in and it was a lazy morning. I felt good, all things considered. As the day progressed, I just got more and more "tired". Not sleepy - just tired. We went shopping then drove about 4 hours. Before the shopping was over, the tired began. I popped a ritalin and had a coke. An hour later as we were on the road, the tired continued. Now typically I love driving. Maybe because it doesn't require a lot of energy so I don't feel fatigued. No such luck today. The tired continued and I popped another. Two hours later I was still d-r-a-g-g-i-n-g and popped the third.
We ate dinner with some friends and were going to a football game. Rather than continue to be "dull", I popped the 4th. Finally awake and alert enough to engage in conversations and be myself.
The blahs never really entered the picture - though I have to admit part of that was because I was with someone the whole day. The blah-blues usually attack the worst when I'm alone. (Being almost unemployed and working from my house when I am employed, doesn't help this).
My gf & I had a good opportunity to discuss the upcoming operation. I've concocted a "story' to cover the surgery.... (I've pulled the concocted story out from previous posts to further the anonymity).
I've found another person's blog about their DBS. He's a parkinson's DBS patient. Here. He's got some good points and I will definately ask about the "steel ball ear plug portion of the halo/frame procedure" which bothered him.
He's doing well and I appreciate his willingness to share. I'll try to be as detailed.